Elena was born wanting more. When she could hold up her head, she was furious she couldn’t roll. When she learned to roll, she was upset she couldn’t crawl. Now that she crawls, she is frustrated she can’t crawl faster. Soon, I’m sure, she will be trying to walk. Her life motto is, “More is never enough!”
I hope this (sometimes) annoying characteristic will carry over in positive areas. I want her to be like this spiritually–never satisfied with the status quo.
I will not be so excited if this urge for something bigger and better pushes her into debt, or addictions, or up the steep slopes of Mount Everest!
It is too easy to get comfortable and stop wanting more. Even if the status quo isn’t great, it is familiar. It is easy to identify with Hamlet. Life “makes us rather bear those ills we have, Than fly to others that we know not of.”
I’m glad I wasn’t raised to be complacent. You can’t have an idealist for a mother and be satisfied the way things are. Granted, her idealism led us down some crazy paths, but it also helped us learn to be independent thinkers who are always desiring something better from life–better ways of doing things, deeper friendships, fool-proof schedules (they actually don’t exist!), and a closer walk with God. Just when we thought we’d figured out the best way to do something, Mom was sure to think of a way to improve it. Now that is one perfectionistic idealist!
And God is another perfectionistic idealist. He doesn’t want me to be complacent. In fact, as soon as I start to get comfortable, He finds some new way to push me out of my shell. Some of those ways have been more traumatic than others, but I’ve learned to appreciate the results–eventually!
Right now I’ve been experiencing one of those times. I’m a bit scared. I don’t have as much of a thirst for “more” as my daughter. Or maybe life experience has made me more cautious. There is an internal conflict going on. I want more, but I’m scared of where it will take me.
I don’t know where God will take me. I do know, though, that He won’t let me down. He has a goal in mind. His goal is perfect Christ-likeness. It isn’t attainable here on earth, but it is still the goal. It is called Progressive Sanctification. And it is never satisfied with the way things are. It always want something more.